Between Christianity and me, there has always been a hard relationship.
I’ve got a catholic family, i studied at a catholic school for thirteen years and I was baptized when i was 11.
Since i was a little girl, i have questioned about a lot of values that found the christianism, despite i lived surrounded by Christian people, there were thoughts in my mind that didn’t let me accept the doctrine that they practiced.
At my religion classes i always discussed with my teacher about some phrases the bible contained which i didn’t agree with, such as the story of the genesis when Eva tempted Adan to eat the apple that would make God take them out from paradise. That story shows the figure of the woman as if she was the one who brought all the problems and bad things to the life of men.
There was clearly a tendency of male chauvinism and a patriarchal ideology, which puts women at a lower position in the society. This is represented in different situations that people had always taught us as if it was something normal and fair, like the fact that all the apostles were men, same case with the priests.
I also wondered about why Jesus couldn’t have a relationship with Mary Magdalene and have children together, and why would that be something wrong or less pure to “the eyes of God”, considering that he always preached about giving love and showing it to the others.
This shows, added to lots of other cases that time won’t allow me to express totally, the usual contradiction between the speech they preached and the way the did things.
When i was at high school, i wrote an essay about ancient Greece and the irruption of christianism in their culture for my philosophy class, and I concluded that since those old times religion was used by powerful people ,in this case the Roman Empire, to control the poor people and make them act following their laws and beliefs.
I noticed that religion gives people the conviction about the future life that awaited them in heaven, where they should be rewarded for their actions in this life, instead of showing them that they should enjoy this life and fight to make this world worth living for everyone.
Years ago, I concluded I wouldn’t identify myself as a Christian nor a Catholic person, based in what i just exposed.
I prefer to believe in real values of equality, love, dignity, peace and respect without a lying institution intermediating between me and that “divine thing” which i believe lives in all of us.
